20/10/2025
I’ve always felt like I wasn’t an angry person. But lately, I’m realising that’s not really true. No human is just one thing or the other.
Working with around somatics and deep anger repression is helping me access repressed emotions. Through this work I’m feeling deeply - not just anger, shame, hurt, but also excitement, joy, even my own aliveness.
In subconsciously avoiding the raw, unfiltered, difficult-to-face parts of myself that I suppressed as a child, I people-pleased, lived and worked through constant dis-ease, health conditions, fatigue, anxiety and depression. I felt uncomfortable in my own skin and built many life rafts to help me stay “balanced”.
What I’ve come to understand is that repressed feelings and emotions stored in the body create dis-ease and stress, leading to a myriad of symptoms and illnesses. The body always keeps the score when we don’t allow ourselves to feel.
Over the years I’ve explored a lot - human behavioural work, NET (Neuro-Emotional Technique), Joe Dispenza and Dr Demartini’s teachings plus his Breakthrough Experience training, a heap of Breathworks, ice baths, plant medicines, and other modalities - all of which have culminated in my desire to go on this new journey with Ryan.
Now, as a father, this feels even more meaningful.
I want to teach my son that all feelings are welcome - that he doesn’t need to be “perfect” or always in control to be loved or accepted. That his sadness, anger, excitement and joy are all part of being human.
As Dr Gabor Maté says, “The attempt to be always positive is not healthy, it’s a denial of the full range of human emotion.”
And as Joe Hudson reminds us, “Freedom isn’t found in controlling emotion — it’s in feeling it, without judgment.”
This work has been uncomfortable and confronting, but through it I’m learning that emotion isn’t good or bad - it’s simply energy wanting to move.
We live and breathe what we share, always walking it before we teach it. I’ll keep sharing this journey as it unfolds, in the hope it helps others recognise what’s been left unfelt, welcome it fully, and move forward with more freedom and presence 🫶🏼☯️
