Moon Blossom Healing

11/06/2024

I release all feelings of responsibility for other people's thoughts, feelings and choices. I do not control these things and I do not control other people. These things are solely within their control as they should be. I free my heart of the burden of false empathy and compassion that I have carried in the past and replace it with self empowerment that gives me the freedom to love others as they truely are and not as I think they should be.

11/03/2024

What Freedom is to me! What I have learned. What I have felt, feel and have experienced is real and valid. I do not need others to validate that for me. I need to explore, and approach these emotions and experiences with compassion for myself, with curiosity about how they affect me and how I can grow and heal from things that have caused me pain. How I have reacted and perhaps done and said things that were not in alignment with who I want to be and instead of judgment choose to forgive and release that past self. No one else can fix you or your life. No one else can bring peace to your heart or heal you. No one else is responsible for that. Which also means you are not responsible for doing that for someone else. An aspect of my shadow is control. So much of my life felt out of control that I always felt that I had to control the situation around me. I felt that I was responsible for healing others, fixing problems, taking on the burdens so that I had control of how bad things got. It was a total illusion. I had zero control over others. I thought it was compassion. I thought helping others and listening to their pain and problems all the time even though it often caused me emotional pain and fatigue was my duty. I thought that covering co-workers shifts even though I had 2 other jobs was helping them and the business even though I was physically burned out. I thought that buying groceries for a homeless person when I didn't have any money for my own groceries was the right thing to do. I was always giving from a place of being burned out, and being broken because that's what "good people do". In reality it was fear. I was afraid that I was a bad person and that I had to prove I was a good person. This has a lot to do with the spiritual trauma of my past. I now feel that I do not need to prove this to anyone. I just need to accept that I am a good person with myself. This gives me the freedom to give my energy, time, money, compassion, and attention from a place of strength and genuine caring. And as I see giving as reciprocity I know that such will be returned when I have need and I can accept what is given to me with graditude instead of worry about having a debt. I no longer have to carry the burden of trying to control other people , or situations in an effort to protect myself or even other people. That was never the right approach. I can only choose for myself, care for and heal myself. It's my responsibility and my freedom. No one can take that from me, or manipulate me into believing I am helpless ever again including myself.

11/02/2024

10/20/2024

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Every animal deserves a life free from cruelty and neglect. That's why I stand with the Humane Society of the United States. Will you donate now to help animals?

10/18/2024

10/17/2024

This is the hardest lesson I have to keep embracing. Right now there is massive pain in this world. A lot of which I have no control over. Certainly there are little acts that add up, and changes I can make in my life that will help on a collective level but the reality is I do not have control over massive events like hurricanes, wars, crimes, ect. I have to keep setting the boundaries to protect my energy between being informed and being drown. It's a struggle because I am angry at times especially by how I have been manipulated and deceived. However this is where I am at. I care but I have to follow the sutra of detachment. It doesn't mean that I am not empathetic or compassionate. It means that I am decerning with how I engage with the world. I know I will probably faulter a few times because my old paradigm was to take on the pain and responsibility of others pain. My intent this new moon is a new beginning of releasing that and allowing others to be responsible for themselves. I can be supportive and more effective in my caring by doing so.

10/17/2024

Let me tell you who I am. I am just a human. I have flaws and I have gifts. I love my family, my cats, my partner, and friends. I generally care about humanity. I love the earth, the cosmos and have a special fondness for the moon. I am spiritual but not particularly concerned with which religion or philosophy I learn from. I have been in love with men and women but it was always their soul that mattered. I don't need a lable to define me, I am indefinable as an individual. I am just me. If you like me great if not that's fine too.

10/13/2024

Anger is the emotion I have been struggling with a lot. Number one because there is a ton of other emotions ( wandering kittens) attached to it, two because I have feared feeling this emotion, expressing this emotion and experiencing this emotion from other people my whole life. I used to believe that I had to express it in an aggressive way ie channel it through screaming such as suggested by my pervious therapist, or through martial arts in the past which led me to self harm, though aggressive dance but I couldn't bring my body to do it and it wouldn't let it happen. I often cried and lost control in random out bursts of pent up frustration and fits that were basically tantrums that I could hide most of the time but not always. I just don't know how to handle this emotion and it's subsequent add on emotions of fear, panic, anxiety, grief, hurt, abandonment, and betrayal. So I'm reading about meditation and the comparison of "sitting" with the Anger vs Screaming. I recently also came across the idea that expressing anger in aggressive ways actually makes you angrier. Which physiologically makes sense as it would increase adrenaline and amgidela activation leading to you guessed it nervious system "fight" response. So I see the benifit in "sitting" with it. But then there is the info that after hightened fight or flight the body expends excess adrenaline bringing the body back into balance. Knowing that my nervious system goes into sympathetic fight or flight very easily and is often triggered ( recently by anger) can I use this info. Can I activate physical expression of the emotion in a non aggressive way that is still going to create the effect of releasing the adrenaline and helping my body get back to homeostasis. Enter Somatic work. I really have a lot to learn. I've seen some that has a person smashing things but also somatic yoga that tenses and relaxes with breathing exercises and movement to gently engage the muscles and energy then release it. This is gonna be part of my mission! For me to learn how to accept anger, express it and release it in a healthy way. The pieces are coming together ❤️
Ustrasana also known as camal pose good for releasing anger. AVOID if you have back of neck injury.

10/12/2024

I am not asking for a prayer specifically unless that is what you wish to do but perhaps a moment to think of and send well wishes to those going through hardships caused by hurricanes or any other events in this world. I place my prayer to the Goddess for them. This is the original post to share :
Asking for a prayer. We are getting an online prayer circle going. My love to everyone who reads this. Let's pray for each other and all of those affected by hurricane Helene today & incoming Milton because prayers are needed right now. If I don't see your name, I'll understand. I ask my family and friends wherever you might be, to post this status for one hour, to whisper a prayer for all of those who have family problems, health struggles, job issues, or worries of any kind and just need to know that someone cares. Do it for all of us, for nobody is immune. I hope to see this on the walls of my family and friends. I did it for someone else, and you can too ! 💜🙏🏻💜
I copied & posted to my wall.
Done!! Prayers ongoing.

10/10/2024

Svadhyaya (self observation and nourishment), Tapas (Heat, engagement of challenge), Ishvara pranidhana ( surrender the outcome).
* pose shown Warrior 1 or Virabhadrasana 1

10/05/2024

After 5 weeks of struggling I was finally able to do 3 reps of 10 of this evil exercises ! Victory is Mine!

10/04/2024

I am not a healer. I am a facilitator of healing. You are the healer in your own life.

09/19/2024

It is my prayer and commitment to continue to come into alignment with my true and authentic self. I take back my energy and power. I take back my life. For no other person can do it for me or take responsibility for my well being. The mistakes I've made with my health and energy were created by my mind and body's efforts to take care of and protect me and I honor and thank that part of me but it is time to teach them a new way. A way of health, of wholeness, of personal responsibility. I do not forgive those who traumatized me. I simply release them completely. They are gone, done, and in the past. The damage they have caused has unfairly been my burden to heal and I have struggled with that but I refuse to continue to allow myself to be victimized. I choose to meet myself. The person I am meant to be. To work through the triggers, night terrors, depression, hyper villigence, nervious system disassociations, negative thought patterns, chronic migraine and all coping habits associated with them. It may take me a life time but I will not give up. One moment at a time. I accept it will never be linear or perfect. I give my heart and spirit the grace and love I would give any other person to stumble at times. Yet make no mistake, have no doubt I am pledging this for myself, to myself and it is my freedom.

07/21/2024

A huge break through has opened my eyes when asked the question what would your life be like if you weren't always trying to lose weight. I have released the idea of trying to lose weight. This does not mean I don't want to or that I an going to free fall into old habits. Instead I am shifting my focus. My goals. My priority's are increasing mobility, strength, balance and flexibility, cardio health. My eating will be focused on getting enough protien to support these goals and enough carbs and fats to facilitate the exercise I do working towards these goals. My additional priorities are reducing stress, balancing my hormones, and maintain a healthy gut. I will support this with getting enough fiber and pre/probiotics.
Sleep, mental heath, and spiritual health. I will use things like meditation, prayer, nature, movement, massage and lots of other things to support this.
As for weight I will not be counting calories or even worring about a deficit. Instead I will start practicing mindful eating, creating a routine or eating cycle my body can adjust its hunger to, taking eating breaks to give my body a chance to feel full, eating foods for satiety, and taking the time to learn how to tune into my hunger and full signals.
And Last but not least keep drinking water.
This is a life long goal and process.
What to hope to gain is comfort in my body. Comfort in my movement. Comfort in my mind and comfort in my heart. I feel and trust that weight loss will be a by product of this work. It may be slow 🐌 but in the meantime I will be healing. This is what self love and self care is all about.

06/26/2024

She is interviewing to be my accountability buddy 🥰
She got the job lol

06/23/2024

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