10/21/2026
Grief doesn’t care how much healing you’ve done. 💜
This morning, I turned on my Cyndi Lauper station to start my day.
The first song was When I Get There by P!nk.
Followed by True Colors by Cyndi Lauper.
And then Dancing in the Sky by Dani and Lizzy.
Three songs. Back to back.
And just like that, there they were.
October 23rd is a date that will forever be etched into my heart. It’s the anniversary of losing my late husband. And years later, on that very same date, I lost my best friend, my Nydia.
Two people. Two completely different relationships. Two enormous pieces of my life.
Gone.
I’ve done a tremendous amount of healing over the years. I’ve sat with the anger, the sadness, the guilt, the questions, and all the things nobody really wants to talk about when it comes to grief.
I’ve learned to forgive. I’ve learned to laugh again. I’ve learned to love the life I’m living.
And I genuinely do.
But none of that means I don’t miss them.
None of that means certain dates don’t feel heavier. Or that a song can’t bring me right back to a moment in time when my entire world changed.
Healing doesn’t mean we stop grieving. It means we learn how to live alongside it.
Some days I can talk about them and laugh until my belly hurts. Other days, I would give absolutely anything for one more conversation. One more hug. One more ordinary day.
And sometimes, like this morning, I find myself wondering if they’re somewhere together, laughing at the fact that they managed to get my attention before I’ve even finished my coffee.
I don’t have all the answers about what happens after this life. But I have faith. I have hope. And I have a whole lot of love that didn’t disappear when they left this earth.
So no, grief isn’t something I’ve gotten over.
And I don’t particularly want to get over loving people who meant so much to me.
I just want to keep living a life that honors the love we shared.
A life filled with laughter, purpose, gratitude, and yes, even sadness sometimes.
Because grief and gratitude can exist in the very same breath.
And this morning, they certainly did.
With love and light,
Olivia Mae 💜