14/06/2023
I used to think Self Love was so Vanilla.
It felt corny & SO “love and light-y” to me.
I was sensitive & really tender inside, but I had over developed my masculine energy for safety.
My internal mantra was… “get your s**t together”
I didn’t know what Self Love could feel like.
I didn’t know it could fill up the empty place inside me I kept hoping someone else would fill or fix.
I didn’t know it could soften my sharp edges & calm my hypervigilance.
I didn’t know it could create a steady internal ocean where tuning to the ebb & flow was possible, & a sense of capacity & harmony take up the most of the space.
I didn’t know my mind could be a place I wanted to inhabit – full of encouragement & compassion.
There was a time when I struggled with periods of dissociation.
There was a time when I numbed out with s*x, drugs & technology to distract myself from feelings I didn’t know how to be with.
There was a time when setting boundaries & speaking up for my needs was terrifying. I was afraid that if I spoke up, I would lose love & people I loved would leave me.
I held shame about being “sensitive” & “too loving”. Had even more shame around being “too emotional” & “too controlling” — a result of my lack of trust in myself, the world & others.
I was afraid of being seen.
I revealed parts of myself that received love & approval, but hid the parts I thought people wouldn’t like or accept.
I felt lonely & unlovable more often than I want to admit.
But Breathwork helped me peel these layers of societal & family conditioning.
It helped me release my stories of “too much” & “not enough.”
It helped me let go of being a walking wound-always a victim, waiting for someone else to make it better.
It gave me a way to move out anger, resentment, grief & fear from my body so I could welcome in joy, softness, presence & reverence for me, the world, Source & life itself
It helped me fill up from inside with self love and grace.
It deepened my connection to my intuition, creativity and my faith.
It made me feel whole & not broken for the first time in my life!
If you are called, join me in Breathwork this Friday 9/16
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