15/07/2022
"My emotions are too big for my body."
Do you ever feel this way? Feeling intensely, felt uncomfortable. I would look at the people around me, young and old, checking if there was anyone else who was going through, what I felt myself going through, and if they were making it work for them? I seemed to be the only one "getting worked over" by my emotions. I didn't like the way I felt. So I came up with an excuse, and I deflected.
In hindsight, I feel this limiting belief, that my emotions are too big, hindered me for a long time. This is not a growth and evolutionary oriented belief. This is a close comfort, limiting belief. It sure feels true though: that I, alone, have Larger than life emotions. Hoooo. I'll let you in on a little secret: deflection did/does more harm to my body than good. But I didn't know what else to do!
Emotions and the body, is a Life Curriculum in and of itself, imho. And I went decades in my Life without Consciously Enrolling. Relationship Breakups, the Passing of Grandparents, Loss of a Pet, and Any of Life's Major Disappointments, these seem to be unavoidable Core Curriculum classes.
Beyond that, what we might call Conscious Living or taking Emotional Electives, seems to be just that, optional. But life has a way of getting our attention, doesn't it? And, in times of crisis, when we have our backs against the wall, and feel we are out of options, we suddenly take an interest in our emotions. Do we have any other choice at that stage??
(Neglected) emotions can "get out of hand" or feel like they are overriding our entire lives. Hyperbole creeps into our language; molehills look like mountains. And climbing those sheer emotional cliff sides can feel like a superhuman feat! Look at you go, you death defying delusional daredevil! We feel a rush, from the sense of avoiding danger, don't we? Newsflash! What we are really feeling, in our bodies, is the danger of avoiding.