19/10/2026
I think one of the hardest things about finding yourself is realising how easily you can still lose yourself trying to be accepted.
Even now, I catch myself wondering if I’m too much? If I should tone it down, soften the edges, keep certain parts of myself quiet so I’m a little easier to understand, a little easier to love…
And honestly, I’m fu***ng tired of questioning the parts of me that make me who I am.
I know what it feels like to slowly disappear inside a life that looks *perfectly fine* from the outside. To be so busy being understanding, being “good”, being what’s needed, that you stop asking yourself whether you’re actually happy.
You don’t always notice it happening. Sometimes you only realise how far you’ve drifted from yourself when you finally get a taste of what it feels like to be free again.
And once you’ve felt that, something changes.
You start to understand that peace isn’t keeping everyone else happy. It’s being able to live with yourself, knowing you haven’t betrayed who you are - just to be accepted.
I still have those moments where the old doubts creep in. Where I catch myself overthinking, questioning, wondering if being fully myself will be too much for someone.
But I know what it costs me to keep making myself smaller, and I’m no longer willing to pay that price!
I want to feel deeply, love fiercely, laugh loudly, speak honestly and follow the things that light me all the way up! I want to be soft without shrinking, independent without apology and open hearted without losing myself in the process.
Will everyone understand me? Probably not.
Will I get it wrong sometimes? Absolutely.
But I would rather be messy, misunderstood and completely myself than spend another fu***ng day editing my existence to make it more comfortable for everyone else.
I’ve fought too hard to find my way back to myself to leave her behind now.
I want all of it! The depth, the joy, the absolute chaos, the freedom, the love, the life I haven’t even lived yet!
And I’m done asking myself whether I’m allowed to want it…
Because I fu***ng am.
And so are you! ❤️🔥