20/09/2025
After feeling completely detached from the noise of the world, Wednesday night I felt the energies shift dramatically. After a restless sleep I woke feeling anxious, almost panicky and just burst into tears. I knew this was not mine, despite the stories my mind begins creating to justify why I must be feeling this way 🙄
Despite planning to be more active on social media now my youngest has started school, it has been almost impossible for me, as my focus has been drawn particularly inward this year.
Some of this has been for deeply personal reasons, which I will share in a future post/video, but also because the duality in the world has been getting more and more intense (as we knew it would) as things reach tipping point.
When I read posts or watch videos, I feel the energy behind them more than what is being spoken. This year, especially the last few months, there feels like so much more division, so many people shouting to be heard, so many unwilling to see a perspective other than their own and diminishing of anyone who holds an alternate view. Again, not unexpected, just surprised by the intensity and where/who it is coming from sometimes.
Rather than let myself be bombarded with external information and the accompanying energy exchange that occurs, I’ve been guided to conserve my energy, knowing things are going to get much ‘louder’ for a while.
Fiji 🇫🇯 has been so healing for me on so many levels, I can’t even explain it! I’m sure I’m Fijian in different lifetime 😍
Fire, Earth, Air, Water. All the elements are balanced around me and those within me just seem to naturally align too. It is so much easier to let go, when there aren’t all the usual things to hold onto. All the things that ‘need to be done’ at home. I always feel so much healthier here too. The temperate climate agrees with me and I am much more active.
Spirit - I didn’t realise just how much we needed this trip as individuals, as a couple, as a family. It’s so easy to lose ourselves and each other in the distraction of ‘life’ if we aren’t careful. It gave us an opportunity to remember what’s really important, and enjoy being fully present with each other and each moment 🥰
The genuine warmth of the locals always touches my heart deeply. Each time feels like being welcomed home, and each time we leave with new friendships made. If you find yourself at Heineken House try to make sure it’s on a night the talented & beautiful Paul Natoga and Ollie are playing. I could listen to them perform all night, though they may well regret the invitation to sing with them next visit 🤣
We enjoyed meeting some beautiful families, from back home as well as many other parts of the world! I enjoyed many deeper conversations, which I always love, hearing of others experiences and journeys, as well as well as finding myself being the unexpected but welcomed messenger a few times - a nod and knowing smile always exchanged, both acknowledging divine connections 🤩
This has been everything I didn’t know I needed! I feel blessed and grateful, rested & recharged, expanded and grounded.
I’m not sure what comes next, but I know I am ready for it!
Wishing you all you need right now with love & biggest heart hugs 💙💛💖
