Hands Upon HUMANity

10/11/2026

Grief, guilt, lemons to lemonade

This is a very difficult post to share but I know I can do difficult things.

During my 61 years of walking on this planet I have experienced many losses and reactions.

At 18, a beautiful Calico named Beebee got outside and digested poison. it wasn't until she was in my arms I discovered she was pregnamt. Heart breaking, I cradled her and cried and cried. I yelled at my boyfriend, We have to save her! He said There was nothing we could do. We buried her.

It was 8 years before I brought another cat into my heart and home.

Years went by, beloved pets came and went and in 2023, just before the Wild Fire Evacuation a pretty young female Ginger decided we had potential. We returned home and nearly every night she came by or stayed over sleeping at our heads.

One middle of the night I awoke to mews. Turns out Pretty had 4 beautiful babies under my side of the bed. We named them...Harry, Daphne, Joy and Indie.

Curious kitten that Indie was she could often be found exploring the inner workings of the washer, dryer, dishwasher.

One afternoon I had a friend over for tea. Laundry on the go.
I went to shift the wash to the dry and discovered, much to my horror, Indie, laying atop the wash.

I tried to revive her.

I called the vet.

All the while, my amazing friend stood by comforting-It was a horrible accident.

I was a mess. This beautiful girl drowned, was trapped and couldn't get out.

I called John.

John came home from work and my friend left. John and I cried and cried as we gently wrapped her and took her to the vet for individual cremation.

A few weeks later Indie arrived home in a lovely urn. Her favorite sibling Harry went straight to the urn and laid down beside her.

I couldn't do laundry.
I couldn't go near the washer.

I was traumatized.

I just kept seeing her image.
Over and over.
I could smell her.

Here's the thing...

Sh*tty, horrific things happen.
People you expect to be there are not. People you don't expect are.

I could choose to stay stuck in the trauma response or look at ways to honor the memory of this beautiful soul we lost.

In Indie's honor and with the help of Tamara B. I created a sticker-see photo.

I'll be including one in our Annual Christmas letter and they'll be available by donation -Minimum $2. Magnet $5. Please PM your mailing address.

Proceeds will go towards local cats wellbeing.

Miss and love you Indie and I am so sorry,

Leah

10/11/2026

Today I give thanks for another day topside,
for a mind that is eager to learn to learn new things and revisit old,
for a love shared between my Beloved and my self for the past 20 years,
for our furry family,
for our home with running water and a furnace to keep us warm on cold days & nights,
for new adventures, like Self Worth Workshops-dates coming soon! and RIM too!
new friends,
connecting with family,
tea with old friends,
cleared clutter,
clean sheets,
shared laughter and tears with Beloved,
advetures with Beloved-road trips, bevies & drives,
facing my Self and pushing through old behaviours, patterns & beliefs,
challenging my Self,
not comparing myself,
believing I am capable of so much more,
a tasty cuppa,
snail mail,
remembering scheduled tea dates with friends,
a fully charged phone,
finding joy in otherwise disruptive situations,
forgiving self, forgiving others,
unexpected gifts,
pants, shirts, socks put on right side out,
a toilet that doesn't back up,
opportunities to stretch my self,
hugs, well wishes, Love You's received from customers,
small town husband sightings-like right behind me at a light,
able to laugh when salmon oil flew out of a package of salmon and covered all of my vest, arms at work,
and so much more...

Much lovge to you on this day and every day before and after,

Leah
xox

05/28/2026

Ask your Body to speak what it needs. Zero in on the exact point of the itch, knock, cramp. Listen, what is she saying?

04/23/2026

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04/21/2026

04/18/2026

How often have you had that as**at in your head tell you lies about the magnificent Soul you are?

The pendulum swings far more to the right these days because I have invested in my self/Self through Inner work, self-awareness, trudging and dancing through/over icky bits & self imposed fears,
and recognizing my Self Worth.

Easy? No.
Possible? Hell Yes!

Stay tuned for upcoming Self Worth workshop registration dates.

Leah

01/08/2026

Cancer, it's not so bad. It taught me the importance of Love. Forgiveness.

I am blessed to have strangers share their struggles and their epiphanies.

Today at work a family visited my til.
Chit chatting and the husband shared some physical side effects from having taken chemo. I could feel my heart opening in response to his sharing as I observed his family as he spoke.

What really touched my Soul and brought tears ro my eyes and all manner of an enveloping love and warmth is when he shared that yes, he had cancer and that, you know, it wasn't such a bad thing because...(are you sitting down?) it taught him to Love. What is REALLY important. The value of forgiveness.
At this point we are having a moment. A deep understanding and connective moment. At work.

I shared I experienced a lot in my life and back in 2006 what came to me is "Love is the answer, Forgiveness is the key". He nodded and said, exactly.

There was a bit more chit chat about how God places people in our lives and works in amazing ways.

Over the years I have been blessed to experience the challenge and ultimate wonder of Forgiveness and the heart space of Loving of Someone Anyway.

Who in your life do you need to forgive?
Love Anyways?

How about your self? A good start. (Note to self)