05/09/2024
// You are allowed to unlearn everything and start all over --
8 years ago I started my yoga journey through Ashtanga yoga. Being very devoted to the yogic philosophies, I travelled to India in 2018 to do my 200hr certificate in Ashtanga and Hatha yoga after having a "vision" during a meditation. I had this epiphany that I needed to be in India in January of 2018. I didn't know why I had to go, but I knew that I needed to.
And indeed, I got what I hoped for - I got closer to me and who I was at my core before my surroundings told me who I was. In that moment when everything in my life was unravelled in India, I vowed to myself, always to trust my intuition and these "visions" (if that's what you wanna call them), even if it meant that I would be hurting. I kept being devoted to my practice, but eventually throughout the years, my practice became too much. I was too much in my head, trying to be perfect at all times in all aspects of my life and it was draining me slowly. At that point, I let go of my physical practice to instead work on my spiritual practice. Then, a while ago, I had a same vision similar to the first one. I needed to be in Australia in June 2024 and study yoga again. I didn't think about for how long or why, I just trusted my intuition again, like I did last time.
And in this moment, as I'm writing this, I've said temporarily goodbye to everything for a moment, to unravel once again, and unlearn everything I have ever learned. My practice, my peace, my essence, how I show up for my loved ones and how I show up for myself.
I am learning, that you are allowed to unlearn everything and start all over. Always remember that there's a difference between loneliness and solitude, so start all over, if you must - even if it entails that you'll be hurting for a while - you will heal and you will come back to yourself. Always.
// Caroline xx
