26/10/2026
THE HARDEST PART OF MY ACL INJURY? YOU CAN’T EVEN SEE IT.
Looking at this photo, you’d probably think I was fine.
I look fit. I look strong. I look like me.
But my knee tells a very different story.
Yesterday, the reality of this injury really hit me. I’m working hard at prehab, but I’m only three weeks in, and there’s a long road ahead.
I had a brutally honest conversation with my physio about running. Barcelona Marathon in March was my goal. Something to focus on, something to work towards, particularly with everything going on with Dad’s cancer diagnosis.
But that goal is off the table now.
And I think I’m finally feeling the weight of that.
Because it’s not just about a knee. It’s about losing something that makes you feel like YOU. Something that gives you purpose when life feels uncertain.
I can turn up, coach my amazing women and have a phenomenal week with them, yet still feel frustrated about my own situation.
Two things can be true at once.
Yesterday, I couldn’t find the positivity. So I stopped trying to pretend I could.
I’m going to need a new goal, a new focus and a reason to keep pushing forward.
I haven’t figured that out yet.
For now, this is the reality. No forced positivity. Just being honest about where I am.