Audrey Crystal Shaman

18/09/2026

I have been wondering about ending my business for over a year now and I reached the conclusion it is time for me to stop providing my services. I realised the deads cares more, much active in reaching out to communicate with the livings, than the livings to the livings. I lost faith in people humanity, honesty and communication skills. I do not recognise or associate myself with how the Holistic community came to be. I know some amount the people still have integrity and not fuelled by their ego. I may be going backwards in my life, I have learn and know more than back then to choice to live my life fully alone. I do not regret the journeys with the people I met and the stories they shared with me. They have been inspiring, emotional and educational. I apologise for the inconvenience, if any. Both Instagram and Facebook accounts will be deleted any time soon. Sincerely, Audrey

16/09/2026

A client I saw for the morning call was upset when I got back at lunchtime. As I walked in, she told me to sit as she had something to tell me.
Usually her son would go early to her, clean the fireplace, lit the fire and go to work in the farm. He didn't come this morning.
She was told between my calls, he had a stroke yesterday and was in hospital. Lucky would be no damage, just a clot and other treatments to start with other health issues.
The man is only in his early 50s. That's young. He is genuinely a good man, family man and tough working farmer as we know them in countryside.
I let her discuss what she thought, what she felt and could feel and see her upset, emotions in control and holding her tears.
How painful it must be to know your son have such issues or risking to leave before his mother. And as a mother to think this.
She tried to distract her emotions by naming the things he told her and the haha moments she can send it back to him regarding some related health stuff when he will be back.
But I could see it was hard for her to not deny her feelings for her son and worries.
I asked if she has him on the phone to wish him speed recovery from me. The emotions added because her hearing aids has been sent for repair and as she wouldn't be able to hear anything on the phone from him, she is depending on whoever would visit her and tell her loudly.
I really felt for her, the anguish of having to wait in the unknown at length.
You know I'm not religious but I asked her if she wants we do a prayer for him and she was happy about the idea.
We first had the tasks done and after her meal I asked her if she wants now to do the prayer. As I don't know them I told she would need to guide me. She told me the name of silent prayer, that I have absolutely no memory of how she called it and what it says but I follow her gesture and timing while thinking "May her words be heard, may her son get well".
She was grateful for the moment. I continued with my tasks and joined her back on the couch for awhile. I could see during the silence her tears rolling thinking I wasn't seeing. ...

15/09/2026

29/08/2026

Last night catching up with childhood friends, of 30 years ago. Knowing nothing about one of them for as long, called me the "real one". Different meaning now with decades, comes to mind.
There is the materialism side. I've no kid, no husband. But still can fall in love with life other and other again. Time of "F*k it!", let's feel alive, time is now. Without complications, just with the natural flow. Simplicity at its best. I need changes and will have them.

28/08/2026