Between Scrubs and Sujood

12/09/2026

10/09/2026

I woke up in the middle of the night and saw a notification from IG that my TOTGA is getting married.

What happened between us, It was never a relationship. We never had the chance to become a couple, perhaps because of our differences in religion. There was no label, no “us,” and maybe there was never really a chance. But somehow, I always felt like there was something between us—something that never fully became something.

What I felt was real. I was able to write poetry about him. I was someone who was always hard to fall in love with, but somehow, I fell for him. The connection felt real, and whatever it was, it meant something to me.

And maybe what makes it harder is grieving something that technically never happened. Grieving something that never had a name, never became a relationship, and never really existed in the way people usually understand love.

But it existed in my heart.

So, to my TOTGA, I’m happy for you. Truly.

Maybe you were never meant to be mine, but I’m grateful that, even for a little while, you were someone who made me feel something I thought I was incapable of feeling.

I’ll keep the memories, the unanswered questions, and the feelings that once meant so much to me—and finally let them go.

Congratulations.

10/09/2026

For the past 3 days, I’ve been having a migraine, and I haven’t been able to do anything. My days have been so unproductive because of the pain. After 8 hours of work, I eat and then sleep for around 16 hours. I still feel the pain in my head even while sleeping. I wake up several times because of the pain, then fall asleep again.

I took paracetamol, but it hasn’t been effective, even though I’ve been taking it every 4 hours.

08/09/2026

Several construction firm owners, government officials and politicians have been accused of pocketing funds from the projects.

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06/09/2026

‘POLITICAL HARASSMENT’

READ: Davao City 2nd District Rep. Omar Duterte condemned the issuance of an arrest warrant against Vice President Sara Duterte, describing it as a "clear act of political harassment."

In an official statement, the lawmaker lamented what he called the use of government power to "break down and silence people," comparing the move to previous legal actions taken against former President Rodrigo Duterte.

"This is no longer just about Vice President Sara Duterte. This is about our dignity as a nation and the safety of every single family in our country," he said, calling on Filipinos to "wake up and see what the current administration is doing." | 📷: Congressman Omar Duterte/Facebook

READ MORE: https://inqnews.net/QCCourtVPSaraArrest

28/08/2026

Last night, I was busy with my patient who had to be re-intubated. I was alone with the doctor, and honestly, I still don’t feel fully competent or confident in situations like this. But Alhamdulillah, I kept going and somehow made it through.

During my shift, I missed an order and wasn’t able to transfuse the platelet. I also called to check the availability of FFP, but it wasn’t available.

After my shift, I was still trying to complete everything that needed to be done. I prepared the paperwork for the blood transfusion and asked the doctor to write the order on the form. It was the first time I had seen him so irritable. He asked me if it was urgent and told me to wait for 10 minutes.

Ten minutes passed, but the order still hadn’t been written.

At that point, I was already holding back my tears, trying my best to stay calm because I was about to cry.

One of the staff noticed and informed the charge nurse. The charge nurse came to help me, wrote the order herself, and asked another doctor to put the stamp.

I then took the blood to the blood bank. When I returned to the NICU, I was still looking for a doctor who could countercheck with me. One doctor refused, while the others were busy with rounds.

I finally went home at 8:48 AM.

As much as I could, I tried my best to do my work and never leave things unfinished. But after everything that happened, I felt so down. I kept blaming myself and thinking, “I’m so stupid. Maybe I’m really not good enough for this.”

The receiving staff even told me that because of what happened, she would be irritated and that her shift would become busy because of me.

And honestly, that hurt.

I know I made a mistake. I know there are still many things I need to learn. I take responsibility for that.

23/08/2026

No matter how people treat me, I choose to remain kind because I know everything is temporary. People, situations, and even the chapters of our lives will eventually pass.

I don’t want to be remembered for how others treated me. I want to be remembered as someone who had a good heart—someone who chose kindness even when it wasn’t always returned.

18/08/2026

15/08/2026

I hope one day you meet someone who understands those parts of you without you having to explain them over and over.
Someone who looks at your quietness and thinks, “She’s peaceful.”
Your sensitivity and thinks, “She has a beautiful heart.”
Your tiredness and says, “Rest, I’ll take care of this.”
And your dreams and says, “Go. I’ll support you.”
Until then… keep choosing sabr and tawakkul. 🤍🌙