09/09/2026
Three years ago today was Ozzy’s last full day on Earth.
From the moment that little boy took his very first breath, I knew he was destined for greatness. There was just something about Ozzy. I didn't know what his life would look like or what God had planned for him, but as his mommy, I knew he was going to leave his mark on this world.
I just never imagined his life would be so short.
When Ozzy was diagnosed with DIPG, a terminal childhood brain cancer, we knew someday this day could come. For 18½ months, we lived with that knowledge while fighting with absolutely everything inside of us to keep our little boy here.
We prayed. We hoped. We researched. We cared for him. We fought beside him. And through it all, we tried to give Ozzy as much LIFE as we possibly could.
Even knowing what DIPG meant, our hearts still hoped for the impossible. We wanted our baby to be the exception.
We knew our time was precious.
We just didn't know September 8th would be his last full day.
And three years later, I still don't think I can fully explain what losing Ozzy has done to me as his mommy.
From the second he entered this world, my instinct was to love him, nurture him, and protect him. When cancer came, that instinct became a fight with everything I had.
And when Ozzy died, that instinct didn't die with him.
I was still his mommy. I just didn't have my little boy here to mother anymore.
There is a pain in that I don't think words will ever fully describe.
I still want to take care of him. I want to hear him call me “Mom.” I want to make him something to eat, give him one of his warm baths, kiss his little face, hear his laugh, or hear him announce, “Guys, I have an idea!” and wonder what that determined little mind had come up with now.
I don't only miss the milestones we never got to have.
I miss mothering him.
I miss the ordinary.
I miss having all of my children here.
Tomorrow marks three years since Ozzy left this Earth, but today I want to remember something different.
Three years ago today, my baby was still here.
He was still our sweet, silly, patient, joyful, determined little boy. Still making us laugh. Still teaching us. Still loving us.
Still Ozzy.
And maybe that feeling I had when he took his first breath was right all along.
Ozzy WAS destined for greatness.
Greatness just didn't look the way I thought it would.
My little boy lived only 4½ years, but the love he gave, the people he touched, the lessons he taught us, and the difference his life continues to make have stretched far beyond those years.
Three years after his last day on Earth, Ozzy is still leaving his mark on this world.
And I couldn't be prouder to be his mommy.
Tomorrow is going to be a really hard day for our family. Three years without our boy is a milestone none of us ever wanted to reach. So if Ozzy or our family crosses your mind tomorrow, please say a prayer for us. Pray for our hearts, for strength, for comfort, and that God holds us especially close as we make it through another September 9th without him here.
DIPG could take his body from my arms, but it could never take away my motherhood. It could never take away our love. And it could never change the fact that I am—and forever will be—Ozzy's mommy.
I love you beyond this life, Ozzy.
Until I get to hold you again my sweet boy.