10/26/2026
**Apparently, my inner children have been running my dating department. 😂**
You would think that by 65, after decades of personal growth, healing work, and studying human behavior, I'd have this whole relationship thing figured out.
Well, apparently nobody informed my inner children!
There I am, a grown woman, perfectly capable of making sensible decisions, when one of those little girls inside me pipes up:
*"I don't know about this. Something's missing."*
And another one chimes in:
*"Where's the excitement? The butterflies? The mystery?"*
Meanwhile, the adult Christina is standing there thinking:
*"Could we PLEASE have one relationship decision without calling a meeting of the entire childhood committee?"* 😂
Here's what I've come to understand.
Sometimes, when we've grown accustomed to emotional intensity, a calm, steady relationship can feel strangely unfamiliar.
We might mistake peace for boredom.
Consistency for a lack of excitement.
And uncertainty for chemistry.
Not always, of course. Sometimes something really is missing.
But sometimes it's worth asking who's making the decision.
The grown-up who knows what she wants today?
Or a younger part of us still looking for something she didn't receive long ago?
I've learned that those little ones don't necessarily disappear just because we grow older or do years of healing work.
They still have opinions!
The difference is that today, I can listen without automatically handing them the steering wheel.
I recently wrote a blog about this very subject: **Why Calm Feels Boring When You're Used to Intense Relationships.** https://crystallineawakenretreats.com/f/why-calm-feels-boring-when-youre-used-to-intense-relationships
And I'm curious...
**Have you ever looked back at a relationship and wondered whether it was your adult self—or one of your younger selves—making the decisions?
