10/16/2026
A little fall beauty for your eyes -
and some ecological pondering of "failing" at belonging… (if you’re curious to ponder with me keep reading - if not, just enjoy the photos 😘).
Here's the cud I'm chewing:
I intellectually understand that we're connected to the Earth. But as much as I tell myself this… there's something perpetually difficult about actually feeling it.
Being offered a way of relating to the living world is different from being able to receive it.
We can understand interdependence, and want to live reciprocally, and still struggle to feel that we belong.
Yes, I do get regular glimmers of connection - moments when my whole heart gets warm…
But then I often return to baseline feelings of disconnection, reflected back to me in the multitude of “acceptable” ways our society treats the land and its inhabitants - and its lack of urgency in addressing human harm to the environment.
I've learned in EMDR therapy that it's equally important to tend to whatever makes connection difficult to trust, feel, and experience… Instead of just feeling bad about not having that feeling, or trying to fake it.
"Embrace the block," as my therapist says. Don't avoid it. Lean in.
I keep thinking about how this happens in human relationships, too. We can encounter care and find it hard to trust, to receive without shame or “shoulds”, or to believe it will last.
I wonder if some of us bring similar questions regarding our blocks in experiencing relationship with the Earth… ?
There are so many histories behind this difficulty: grief, guilt, trauma, exhaustion, material insecurity, religious experiences, or simply having few shared practices that nurture a relationship with land.
Which makes me wonder about the invitations we could offer each other…
Is there room to arrive without feeling connected? To feel sorrow, resistance, awkwardness … or nothing in particular … without that becoming another thing we're failing at?
SO… Maybe it can be okay to just act on reciprocity without the consistent feeling of connection:
Returning to a place.
Learning about who lives there or has lived there. Receiving nourishment.
Offering a small act of care.
Letting familiarity grow without demanding a profound experience.
Standing in solidarity with people who are revitalizing their own earth-honoring cultures they have ancestral connection with.
I'd love to hear about ur own awkwardness with this - or ur own personal advice:
What has helped a sense of belonging with the living world grow for you?
Also, if we see each other in person, feel free to skip the superficial how are you doing Talk and just jump straight into this conversation with me 😘
I do believe it is possible for those of us without living ties to earth-honoring culture to actually feel spiritually connected here and now… it’s just… hard (and hard to put into words!).