09/23/2026
Alcohol is like a Chucky doll disguised as a cute cuddly teddy bear 🧸 that promises to make you feel better.
But, that doll wants to kill you!
I started cuddling it hardcore by age 11.
With no one to turn to & running out of places to hide from the warfare in my home, alcohol became my saving grace.
The adventure of it all more intoxicating than the actual liquid.
I invited my 2 girlfriends to drink my mom’s Jose Cuervo margarita mix out of my giant water bottle in 6th grade. Followed by a quick tour of 7-11 to steal some Marborol Red coverlets before getting caught by one of their moms later that night.
I’m 11 years old, probably wear a size 6-7 in kids still, so tiny & petite, yet sitting outside the principals office the next day with two police officers staring me down standing in the doorway.
Ugh, this was my first encounter with police being present actually for me!
Was it the ci******es?
The drinking in class yesterday?
The lighters in my locker?
I wept & told on myself! 🤦🏻♀️
All of us were suspended from 6th grade, they got 1 day, I got 3 since I was the instigator. And, we had to attend drug division class with their parents with giant 18-year-olds.
We looked like little wet, Chihuahuas compared to these guys and had no business being in theses drug classes.
It was just a few years later, when CPS, removed me from my parents & shortly after I went to my first adolescence treatment center in Oakland, called Thunder Road.
It is such a bad idea to put a tiny little mixed race Latina from the suburbs in a Rehab with a bunch of boys who were court ordered to be there.
BAD BOY HEAVEN!
I was 14.
A virgin.
Hadn’t even got my period yet.
nonetheless, there I was receiving and passing notes from an 18 year-old seriously deranged blonde haired, baby blue eyed swindler.
I left that Rehab learning about a lot of drugs I never seen & befriending people I shouldn’t have.
Of course I didn’t leave until after I threw chairs, peed on a pay phone and cussed my parents out in our group Therapy. 🙇🏻♀️
(Continued below… 👇🏼)