Jackie M. Fernandes

09/30/2026

Every October, we dress up as witches. 🧙🏾‍♀️

Pointed hats. Broomsticks. A cackle for the camera.

But real women wore that label, and it cost them everything. They were jailed, searched, banished, and hanged. Most of them never cast a spell in their lives. They were midwives. Healers. Widows. Women who owned land, asked questions, or refused to shrink.

Starting tomorrow, I'm telling their stories.

✨ They Called Her Witch: 31 Nights of Massachusetts Women History Tried to Silence ✨

One true story every night from October 1 to Halloween. Thirty-one women, from 1638 to 2022. Some names you'll know, like Rebecca Nurse, Tituba, and Lizzie Borden. Most you've never heard, and that's exactly why they need telling.

Here's what I found while writing them: these women were almost never accused because of magic. They were accused because they held knowledge men couldn't control. Because someone wanted their land. Because they spoke up, grieved out loud, or simply didn't fit.

"Witch" was what they called a woman who stepped where women weren't allowed yet.

Sound familiar? 🔥

So I'll ask you what I'll be asking all month: Where in your life have you been called "too much" for simply being powerful?

Tell me in the comments. Then follow along every night on The Spiritual Speakeasy. 👇
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08/08/2026

Eight days ago I told you the portal doesn’t give you anything. I meant it. Here is what it does.

Today I’m opening the SOUL Founding Circle—eight seats, on the eighth, and that is not an accident.

SOUL is four movements:

See—self-trust. What your chart, your cards, and your design are actually reflecting back.

Own—openness. What you’ve been outsourcing, and to whom.

Unleash—unfolding. Making decisions from your own Authority, in real time, with support.

Lead—liberation. Living and working from a self you no longer need confirmed.

Ninety minutes live, together, online. Eight of us. Not a course you watch—a space you practice in.

Everything I taught you this week—the permission search, the response before the story, the forty small decisions—you now have for free. That was on purpose. This is what it looks like to do it with company instead of alone.

This is a founding cohort, priced accordingly. Founding rate: $444. That is not a discount. It is an exchange. You are not getting a deal. You are building the thing.

Begins 9/9/26 · Wednesdays at 4:00 PM PST · 8 seats.

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08/07/2026

I was a teenager when the dreams started.

Vivid ones. The kind you wake up from still holding. They came before I had any framework for them, any language, anyone to ask. And what I learned to do — quickly, and for a very long time — was check.

Check with someone older. Check with someone certified. Check with someone who seemed more sure than I was, which was everyone.

I got very good at finding people to confirm what I already knew. I called it being open. It was actually the opposite — I was handing the decision to whoever answered first.

It took me years to understand that the dreams were never the gift. The gift was that they came to me directly, without going through anyone else, and I spent a decade routing them through other people anyway.

If I could sit down with that girl I would tell her one thing.

You are not waiting for confirmation. You are waiting for company.

Those are not the same need, and confusing them will cost you ten years.

That is the whole reason I built what I built — and tomorrow, on the eighth, I’m opening it.

08/06/2026

Self-trust is not built in the big decisions. It’s built in the forty small ones you made before it.

We tend to imagine it arriving all at once. A reading that finally lands. A morning where you wake up sure. A moment where the fog clears and you simply know.

It doesn’t work like that, and waiting for it to is its own kind of stalling.

Self-trust is evidence. It is built the way any evidence is built — one entry at a time.

You feel a no, and you say the no.
You feel a pull toward something unreasonable, and you follow it for twenty minutes.
You don’t answer the message for four hours because your body said not yet.

Each one is small enough to be forgettable. That’s the point. Nobody is watching. Which means there is no version of you performing certainty—there is only you, keeping a promise to yourself in private.

Do that forty times and the big decision stops feeling like a leap. It feels like the next obvious step, because you already have the file on yourself.

You are not indecisive. You are under-verified.

What small no have you been avoiding?

08/05/2026

You didn’t fail her strategy. You ran it in the wrong chart.

The 5am routine. The daily posting schedule. The launch model with nine emails in five days. The morning pages, the batching system, the discipline that made her six figures.

You bought it. You executed it. It worked for about eleven days and then you fell off, and the conclusion you reached was: something is wrong with me.

That is the conclusion that costs the most, and it is almost always wrong.

Her strategy works because it matches how she is built—her energy type, her Authority, her natural timing, the seasons her chart runs on. When you run it in your design, you are not being lazy. You are running software written for different hardware.

This is the part I actually do for people: not more strategy, but the translation. What is the version of that plan that runs on your system?

Because there is a version. It is usually quieter, oddly slower, and it holds.

You do not need more discipline. You need a plan built for the person actually executing it.

What system did you quit and blame yourself for?

08/04/2026

Your body answered before you finished reading the message.

Think about the last opportunity that landed in your inbox. Somewhere in the first three seconds, something in you moved—opened or closed, lifted or tightened.

Then the story arrived. It would be good exposure. I should be grateful. I said yes to the last one. What will she think if I don’t?

And by the time you replied, you had talked yourself entirely out of the first thing.

In Human Design, this is the difference between your Authority and your mind. Authority is the response. The mind is the argument that comes after it. The mind is brilliant—it is just not the decision-maker, and every time you let it vote, you teach yourself that the first signal doesn’t count.

The practice for today is small and slightly annoying:

Notice the response before you build the case.

You don’t have to act on it yet. Just catch it. Name where it lives—chest, gut, throat, the back of the neck. Write down one word.

That is a rep. Self-trust is built in reps.

Where does your yes live in your body?

08/03/2026

Leo does not rule confidence. Leo rules the heart.

This is the correction I would make to almost everything written about this window.

Confidence is a performance you can rehearse. You can hold a posture, borrow a voice, script the opening line. Plenty of people do, and it works—right up until it costs something.

The heart is different. Leo is ruled by the Sun, and the Sun does not perform. It is the part of your chart that is simply on. It doesn’t decide to shine after it feels ready.

Which is why the Leo question is not "how do I feel more confident." It is:

What am I doing quietly that I have not let anyone see?

Not the polished version. The actual one. The work you do at midnight. The thing you would keep doing if nobody clapped.

Being seen without waiting for permission is not a personality. It’s a decision you make in your body before you feel ready.

What are you doing that nobody knows about yet?

08/02/2026

You already know. You are just looking for something to agree with you.

Here is the pattern, and I say it with love because I have done it:

You pull a card. You don’t like it. You pull another one.
You ask a friend. She says no. You ask a different friend.
You see a number on a clock and decide it means yes.

That is not intuition. That is a search for permission—and it will run forever, because there is always one more card, one more friend, one more sign.

The tell is simple: if a clear answer would have ended the search, you were looking for an answer. If it didn’t, you were looking for agreement.

Sign-hunting feels spiritual. It is actually the most efficient way I know to stay exactly where you are.

The cards are not there to decide. They are there to show you what you were already leaning toward—including the part you were hoping nobody would name.

08/01/2026

The Lion’s Gate is not going to give you anything.

Here is what is actually happening: for the next eight days, the Sun moves through Leo while Sirius rises with it. That’s it. That’s the astronomy. Everything else—the abundance codes, the manifestation windows, the 888 downloads—is meaning we added on top.

I am not telling you that to take the magic out of it. I am telling you because the meaning we add is the whole point, and most people are adding the wrong one.

The portal is not a vending machine. You do not put in a wish and receive an outcome. It is a mirror. For eight days, more people than usual are paying close attention to their own lives — and attention is the thing that actually changes decisions.

So here is what we are doing instead. For the next eight days, I am going to walk you through what this window actually reveals, one piece a day. Not predictions. Not signs. A mirror.

Because the question is not what the portal will bring you.

The question is what you would already be doing if you trusted yourself.

07/04/2026

We may be small, but we are mighty. 🇨🇻
For years, when people asked where I'm from, I'd say Cape Verde and watch them reach for a map. Not anymore.
A nation of just over 500,000 people. Our first World Cup ever. And the Blue Sharks didn't just show up — they held Spain, drew with Uruguay, and became the smallest country in history to reach the knockout round. Then took the defending champions, Argentina, to extra time before bowing out with their heads held impossibly high.
We didn't come to make up the numbers. We came to make history. And we did.
So proud of you, Cape Verde. Always have been. 💙