09/06/2026
Nine medications failed to touch his depression. The one that finally made a difference is the drug he has used for years to put patients to sleep.
Jim Ellwood is an anesthesiologist who has dealt with drug-resistant depression for most of his adult life. Nine different medications, a string of therapists and psychiatrists, stretches where he did well, and side effects he couldn't tolerate. About 2 years ago, in one of his downs, he asked his psychiatrist what he thought about ketamine. His own first reaction years earlier had been the same as everyone else's. He knew it as an anesthetic and couldn't see how it would help.
He found a program run by ER doctors in a monitored setting with a strict protocol. The first session was strange, and he walked out wondering how any of that was going to help his depression. After a two-week induction period he could feel a difference in his mood and his perspective. He still goes weekly, because the effect doesn't last.
Then he started telling friends and colleagues, and got exactly what you'd expect. "Oh, it's the horse drug." "You're in a K-hole like the kids at the clubs." Other anesthesiologists said fine as an anesthetic, but for depression? Then the Matthew Perry story broke, and overnight the headlines were about a dangerous drug, an epidemic of deaths, people using it to get high and overdosing.
He'd heard this one before. Patients used to ask him, "You're not using that Michael Jackson drug?" Propofol is a great drug, he'd tell them. Very safe. Used all the time. The problem was how it was used. Fentanyl, same story.
Having given the drug and taken it, this is what he tells people now. Ketamine is a powerful drug and it can be addictive, and he's sure the clinics screen for a history of substance abuse for that reason. You can't just give ketamine. Whoever is writing the prescription needs a license and a DEA, so before you walk into a clinic you saw advertised, find out who that person is, and if it's the ophthalmologist, ask yourself whether he's the one who knows how to assess depression. If it's at home, know who is with you and what happens if there's a problem. And if you've tried a couple of SSRIs with no good effect, or with side effects that complicate your life, that's the scenario where he thinks this belongs in the conversation.
He wanted his name on this as a doctor, so that people who have cycled through medications and decided nothing will help would consider it.
Jim put it this way:
"It is a powerful drug. It's only dangerous when it isn't used properly."
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