The Heart Room

25/10/2026

Healing the relationship with yourself matters; a negative view of yourself will not produce a positive life.

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18/10/2026

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28/09/2026

Chris (my husband) said something this morning that blew my mind and I haven't been able to stop thinking about it since. He said that some people see lying as being compassionate, and suddenly everything I had struggled to understand with regards to why people choose to lie made sense. People aren't necessarily choosing to lie because they want to be bad, they may be doing it because they think they are actually being kind and nice! Holy s**t. No wonder it's so hard for people to see their way out of the mess they are in because of lies - they don't see lies as a bad thing, so they can't imagine the bad they feel is coming from those lies!

Despite meaning well, lying truly feels bad; it hurts us and it hurts those we lie to. True compassion comes from love and love comes from the choice to be honest. Lies are not honest, and seeing why we might choose to lie can help us know not to.

In order to heal emotionally, an unwavering commitment to honesty is needed, as well as an unwavering commitment to personal responsibility. If you can see that despite meaning well, lying is actually not showing yourself or anyone else true compassion, you can commit to healing through being honest with yourself (and other people) at all times.

22/09/2026

A little note to update everyone on my life. I started writing a book about healing just over two months ago, and wouldn’t you know it, I’ve healed more wounds because of it LOLOL. It’s not that I believed then (or believe now) that I am done healing, but I will say that I was surprised by the depth of wounds that still needed to be healed. Life continues to be surprising and amusing.

One of the things that needed healing is the me who has been afraid to tell people I’m psychic; that word can be so polarizing and triggering for people, and I’ve been in hiding because of it. However, if I want to live authentically, and I do, then I can’t hide any parts of me in the shadows just because others may respond negatively.

I am psychic. I was born spiritually awake; all of my psychic senses were fully operational, and my connection to them was strong. I saw spirits, heard voices when nobody was present, knew things there’s no way I should or could have known through external means, could move people’s energy with my mind, had out of body experiences where I floated above my parents and visited other planes of existence, and other things of the like.

Even though I had a deep connection to my inner knowing, it still took me a long time to finally realize that other people were not experiencing life in the same way I was. Ironic, I know, and it makes me laugh now, but back then I was often confused how others could not see through the lies and could not see the “right” thing to do; the difference between right and wrong was so completely clear to me, that it seemed like something everyone would naturally just…know and follow. It wasn’t until I abandoned myself that I understood how other people were experiencing life so differently.

I was connected to my psychic self until I abandoned myself by denying myself at the request of my parents. I’m not going to go into great detail about all of that here, as I’m delving more deeply in that in the book I’m writing, but suffice it to say that denying myself created a wound that I am addressing. Not only did I need to forgive my parents for rejecting me, I needed to apologize to and forgive myself for agreeing to deny myself. So I’m doing that now, publicly. I’m publicly renouncing the recanting of my truth. I’m sorry to myself that I agreed to lie that day to make other people comfortable. I will never do that again.

I’m also sorry to those who see the word ‘psychic’ and freak out. I understand why you would, and I’m not offended, not even by those who may try to “save” me from myself. I’m not upset because I can see that people mean well even if they aren’t doing well. People who come from fear can only see what fear tells them to see.

I am not bad or evil. I don’t pray to the devil, or worship any such entity. I have honestly turned down an offer from the devil for everything I wanted in exchange for my soul, so when I say I know who I am, I’m not playing around; I truly do know who I am. Living in fear sucks, but it doesn’t have to be that way for the rest of your life. I’m living proof that someone can get spooked by fear and choose not to stay there forever. I use the spiritual connection that I was born with, that we all have the ability to access by the way, to guide me and to help others. To know thyself is divine.

15/09/2026

Words + Actions=Who am I

I am my choices; I am who I choose to be. I'm aware of who I am at all times. 🫶🏻

14/09/2026

After years of being on a self-love journey, I have concluded that love is not a feeling, it's a choice. Up until recently, I associated "love" with the warm and fuzzy feeling that comes when you meet someone new and you have a spark in your chemistry, or with the feeling I felt when my kids were born. Turns out, that's joy, not love. Don't get me wrong, I don't believe joy is bad or wrong, but I think that when I thought I loved someone, what I really felt was enjoyment of them. This explains why I felt love was fleeting, because it wasn't love, it was joy.

Love isn't a feeling; it's a choice. It's the decision to commit to unwavering honesty and unwavering personal responsibility. Those two choices are love in action. Choosing to be honest and choosing to be responsible for myself fills me with joy, so I can see how I continued confusing joy and love for so long.

The truth is, I love everybody equally. I see that now, and I've only been able to say that after going on an intense journey of loving myself. I can love my enemies, and it's actually quite easy...I treat them the way I treat everyone-with honesty and personal responsibility, while holding them accountable for their levels of honesty and personal responsibility. It wasn't until I applied those two principles to my own life, repeatedly and unendingly, that I was able to see how to treat all people equitably.

I love everybody equally, but I damn sure don't like everybody equally, nor do I enjoy everybody equally! I choose to love myself by not putting myself around people who prefer dishonesty and lack accountability. Choosing to stay around people who show me they lack love, is showing myself that I don't believe I am worthy of love, and I know I am.

I used to be afraid to talk about this kind of thing. I used to be scared that people would read my words about self-love and view me as "holier than thou." I see now that was coming from old wounds asking to be healed. Now, I no longer feel pressured to be flawless. I give myself permission to make mistakes. Because of my commitments to honesty and personal responsibility, I do not fear my flaws and mistakes. I simply own them, resolve them, and move forward. Making mistakes is not a big deal unless I make it one.

Understanding the difference between love and joy has been liberating for me. Rather than feeling unloved by people who do not enjoy me, I feel unliked. That hits a lot differently. I want all people to enjoy life, and so that's my goal with any interaction I have with people. If we aren't meeting that goal, I can confidently know I wanted it, and stay open to meeting that goal in the future, should it become a mutual one.

We choose to love ourselves with our choices, and choosing to love me is what brings me joy, peace, happiness, and contentment. Choosing to love myself doesn't mean I never feel anger, sadness, grief, etc., it only means I respond to all of my feelings with love. Choosing to love myself was the best choice I've ever made; it saved me from the emotional Hell I was in. I truly want everyone to experience the healing power of self-love! Are you ready to love yourself today?
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12/09/2026

I enjoy myself. tremendously. This offends some people, but only those who have chosen not to enjoy themselves. 🤷🏼‍♀️

11/09/2026

I could have died yesterday morning. For real. I’m not trying to be dramatic, but I recognize the dramatic nature of this statement. I didn't almost die, I could have.

Yesterday, I was given an amazing gift - my soul gave me the opportunity to stay or leave. Ever since I began loving myself, I’ve struggled with some of my closest relationships. It seems that some of the people in my life preferred the me that sacrificed myself for them, despite the fact that it made me miserable. I know I will never again abandon or betray myself, but the reality that some people don’t want to be emotionally close to me because of it has been enormously painful. While I understand that this is ultimately coming from their pain, it would be a lie to say I've never felt sorry for myself because of it. Enter, yesterday’s amazing gift.

I was having some gastrointestinal discomfort (ahem, I was on the toilet) when the knowing occurred to me that I could separate from my body (die) and I would no longer feel any of the emotional pain of rejection because of my self-love. Full disclosure: I contemplated it. I thought about it for a minute or two. I could be free of the pain, and wouldn't that also at the same time "serve them right" for not resolving things with me while I was still here? Even as I contemplated that, I felt no judgment "from the other side" about my hurt feelings. I continued thinking about leaving, and the more I thought about it, the more I decided I don’t want to. I’m not done yet. I want to finish my book. I WANT to be here, even knowing the pain that still exists in my life, in my emotional body and physical body, I still want to be here.

I chose to stay knowing that it's not always easy. I was given the gift of informed consent!! To say that it is liberating is like saying that Niagara falls is just a little bit of water. Yesterday's gift solidified for me the power of choice and I'm freely choosing to live this life! Now, here's to making it the best possible life I can imagine!
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