11/09/2025
When your heart breaks into a million pieces twice in one year, it’s hard to imagine a moment of lightness, of joy, or of laughter to come.
In May we said goodbye to our crazy Oskar Blues. His mental health deteriorated quickly and the dementia was no longer manageable with medication. It was one of the hardest decisions we’ve had to make. He gave us 14.5 years of excitable energy, smiles and endless kisses.
Dale was given 3-6 months back in February after discovering a mass on his spleen. He surprised us and kept sharing his love for nearly 8 more months. Though he lost weight, his belly grew, his skin, digestion and appetite changed, he kept his little head up following me wherever I went ready to be carried, snuggled and to share his favorite time, bedtime. He was my emotional support, he was an extension of my heart. Yesterday, I had to say goodbye to my best friend and soulmate. His love and our connection was one I have never experienced. I’m so grateful to have felt this unconditional love.
They say grief is a form of love without a place to go. Today I sit with the shattered pieces of my heart. I sit with the sadness, the pain and discomfort, just as I teach in my yoga classes, for there is beauty within the feeling, within the healing, and deep profound love to be seen on the other side.
You may simply see two little dogs. I see my children of almost 15 years of age in 15lb furry four legged squeezable lovable bodies. Rest in peace my sweet babies.
For now, I will lean in to every salty tear staining and stinging my cheeks. One day, one moment, one breath at a time.
Oskar Blues 11/1/2010 - 5/31/2025
Dale 12/13/2010 - 9/10/2025
