10/01/2026
You’d think I’d be feeling exuberant, delighted, celebratory. And I do. Sometimes.
But the deeper truth is that it feels kind of … weighty.
Like a sinking in feeling.
Like a tremor of responsibility landing.
In 2017, I decided to start teaching energy healing online. So that I could travel in the winters. So that I provide something goood for those willing to learn from me, and have time to think and teach the new things I’m learning while be fully PRESENT in my life.
This week I realized that I actually made twice as much money this year than I thought (and almost as much as I did when I was seeing tons of clients day in day out).
In 2020, we decided to start a family… and to do it like nobody we know. Both parents entrepreneurs. Traveling to Thailand every year. Possibly homeschooling.
This month we’re leaving for Thailand with our family of 4. This is our 8th time. The 6th time for our 5 year old. He’ll go to school there, and then we’ll be trying homeschooling until summer.
In 2023, we decided to fight fascism in the best way we knew how: by increasing the social fabric where we are.
This week, we’re getting TWO series of events set up at the community center that will keep enhancing the social fabric, even while we’re gone.
…and the weight?
It’s self-trust sinking in, I think.
But it’s also the sheer depth of care and determination to remember WHY we made all of these decisions. To remind myself not to be pulled astray by what these commitments demand of us, and to remember why we made them in the first place:
To be present, fallible, true, known parents for our children.
So today at dropping off our son, and getting 8000 kisses and I love yous from him, after the last days have been rough and I canceled a few things to be with him? Taking that in … that’s the truest signal of success and it feels big to take in.
Ok I’m full out sobbing now. Thanks for reading.