13/10/2026
Standing at a Threshold 🌿
What does it really mean to live with awareness when the ground beneath you disappears?
After years of deep inner work, healing, curiosity, questioning my patterns, and finding what felt like a solid foundation, I thought I was standing on firm ground. 🌀
And then life threw a wave of curveballs, all at once! Letting go of a connection where love couldn't land. A fever leaving my body depleted. An upcoming medical procedure to prepare for. And now, three months' notice to leave my home and find somewhere new to live.
Suddenly, so much of what has felt safe and familiar is shifting at the same time.
My mind, doing what minds do, has gone straight to its oldest, worst-case survival stories: scarcity, lack, disaster, even homelessness.
But when I pause and look back over life, I recognise something else, too. My lived experience has repeatedly brought me synchronicities, the right people, and unexpected grace, often when I've needed them most.
I don't want to bypass this hurt with neat spiritual ideas, nor do I want to judge myself for feeling vulnerable.
Perhaps awareness involves recognising how little control we really have over life. Things happen that we didn't choose and couldn't have predicted. Sometimes they shake us to the core.
Maybe living with awareness isn't about avoiding the shake.
Maybe it's about meeting whatever arrives, fully and honestly, while remaining curious about the stories the mind creates around it.
It's my birthday in two weeks, and turning 65 feels deeply significant right now.
I feel as though I'm walking through a threshold. I don't know what's next.
There's an unfamiliar path opening in front of me, and I have no idea what it will look like.
For now, I'm willing to stay present as much as I can, to trust, and to be with life as it unfolds, as the old structures shift and something new begins to take shape.
To be continued… 🤍
Grounded Goddess
